"I bet you have a bunch of photos hanging around your house." One of the stylist commented as I am sitting in the salon. A guilty look slides down my face as we sit chatting.
'Oddly enough" I say "I don't."
As I sit here now I can count seven images I have printed for display on my walls for my family to enjoy.
Read MoreHow are you doing?
I stare down at the message displayed on my phone. A lot of answers are circling through my mind, but I tap out a quick "I'm good! How are you!?"
Honestly, its probably the most put together train of thought I have most weeks. Its not messy. Its nice and neat and wrapped perfectly to shift the focus off of me.
He grabs my hand as we head upstairs to see if he put the books on the bookshelf like I asked. He gives me causal a kiss on the back of my hand as we climb the stairs. He's my affectionate child. With all my might I push down the question I have been asking him all year.
I was being watched. I could feel it. Some times it was so subtle that I felt I was just by chance in their line of sight. A casual 'hi' as I passed by. Looking me directly in the eye when I asked a question.
But other times, the pullof their grazes was so strong, I had to learn to no turn and seek them out. The glances would make my heart beat fast and made me want to run for cover.
Read MoreI was shaking. In my arms laid a four pound wonder. My husband's forehead was on mine. We had made it through a trial we hadn't planned for.
And all I wanted was my mom.
Read MoreYesterday I was talking with my friend about the expectations vs reality of motherhood. Our conversations came around to me sharing a comment I had received while about and about.
"You don't look like the haggard mom of three boys!"
Wait, what? My minds said. My mouth said. ""don't be fooled, I can clean up nice when I get the time." Win for being mildly passive aggressive.
Read MoreThe other day my husband ask me "how are you going yo survive raising this much testosterone?" Most days I don't have a friggin clue. They confuse me and astound me at the same time. And right now they're still into smothering me. Sitting right under my arm, leaning into me, getting as close as possible.
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