How are you doing?
I stare down at the message displayed on my phone. A lot of answers are circling through my mind, but I tap out a quick "I'm good! How are you!?"
Honestly, its probably the most put together train of thought I have most weeks. Its not messy. Its nice and neat and wrapped perfectly to shift the focus off of me.
Its weird when before the old year ends, you know the challenges the new year will bring. When my local Rising Tide leader asked in our FB group what our word for 2018 was, I was stumped. I watched as comments came in for days and still couldn't come with a word that I wanted to live by in 2018.
That was December 30th, and two weeks into the new year I was still searching for a word.
Read MoreI was being watched. I could feel it. Some times it was so subtle that I felt I was just by chance in their line of sight. A casual 'hi' as I passed by. Looking me directly in the eye when I asked a question.
But other times, the pullof their grazes was so strong, I had to learn to no turn and seek them out. The glances would make my heart beat fast and made me want to run for cover.
Read MoreI was shaking. In my arms laid a four pound wonder. My husband's forehead was on mine. We had made it through a trial we hadn't planned for.
And all I wanted was my mom.
Read MoreThe other day my husband ask me "how are you going yo survive raising this much testosterone?" Most days I don't have a friggin clue. They confuse me and astound me at the same time. And right now they're still into smothering me. Sitting right under my arm, leaning into me, getting as close as possible.
Read MoreWhat if your greatest moments where your first? The moments when you were your most vulnerable, were the moments you gave someone the best you had to give. And you made some one stronger..better...more worthy; without even knowing it. That's what capturing your newborn within his first two days of life is like.
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